“When you change the way you view birth, the way you birth will change.” ~Marie Mongan

My beauty Henley, 

I am 37 weeks 2 days pregnant with you and this is about the time when everything becomes very real. At any moment you could decide that you are ready to enter our world. And I have to tell you, I am really excited. 

I am looking forward to the whole process. I loved your older sister's birth and know I'll love yours as well. I know I am different than the rest when I say I look forward to a natural, unmedicated birth...but in all honesty I do. I fully embrace the entire journey beginning to birth. Something about bringing a baby, my baby into the world gives me so much joy that I don't want to miss anything. I like to feel, I want to feel the process. I like to know that my body was made to not only build your precious body, but made to birth it as well. I don't want to be numb or altered when you arrive. 

Our plan is to deliver you at Castle Rock Adventist Hospital, about 22 minutes from our house. I have your hospital bag packed and Halen's big sister bag packed. Aunt Sharon and Uncle Kurt will watch Halen while we go to the hospital to deliver you. Your YaYa arrives May 28th for a week. Daddy thinks you'll arrive May 25th, my guess was June 1st. But I am ready for you to come earlier. 

Now that I've been through your sister's birth, I know what my body can handle and I'm so ready for your birthday. I have made my essential oil roll-ons to help with labor, pain, delivery, for your anointing, and postpartum. I told the midwife I want to pull you out, and have daddy help catch you. I remember being able to feel your sister's hair as she was emerging and I loved it. 

I know I'll go into my zone and breathe, change positions, your daddy is awesome at helping during birth. And I really hope YaYa can be there. She held my leg when your sister was born and it was such a special experience for both her and I. 

I'm ready for it all Henley. I'm ready for the pain to know that you're on your way, I'm ready to focus, I'm ready to push, I'm ready to feel your body on my chest, to kiss you and finally see your face. And I am [cannot find words] ready for you to meet your big sister. When I get to finally hold my two girls at once, will be one of the greatest days of my life. 

It's almost time precious one. Praying for healthy, safe, awesome delivery. 

I love you so. 

Love, 

Mommy